Matthew Knott

Yes another year is almost over. It's a year I'm never going to forget, it's given me the best thing in the world, a gorgeous boy, and totally changed my life!

This isn't a post about reflection, but rather looking forward to what life has in store over the next few years, and all in all there's not much to be afraid of.

Michael, first and foremost will be taking his first steps soon, and then nothing will be save, I already fear for my PS3 on a daily basis and may have to move the setup upstairs to keep it safe, god knows how though. I can't wait for real words to come out of his mouth, for him to sit with me as I read him a book instead of him trying to eat it. I know you guys with kids already maybe thinking that you remember when you felt like that, but it's true what people say, kids really do change how you look at everything. Everything except food in my case :)

Work is going really well, I've got enough work planned out to take me years to complete, and I can't see it getting boring. I'm starting to get into my grove with this SharePoint development, and things are opening up for me as I find new ways to overcome the thousands of problems I have to deal with. The only problem is that with the council I'm in a bit of a pay rut, but hopefully they'll get me a junior soon and I can get a pay rise and a title change, fingers crossed.

I'm also finally getting my arse in gear sorting out some products to sell online, and it feels good to be doing something about it. I've got ample motivation too, making a better life for my family, and getting away form the worst place I've ever lived. I need to raise a substantial amount of money but I believe I can do it, and I suppose that's the main thing, achievement and I have never really been friends, but ambition and believe have been shunning me to, so to make some progress at last is comforting.

It's funny, with the "working for myself" thing, I've always let problems stop me. This means that I can't handle too much of a challenge, I won't see thing through, I like a challenge I can do. However this time, although there are obstacles I'm not sure how to navigate, I'm going to keep going until I'm stuck rather than give up before I get out of bed.

I know this isn't an interesting post, but it's more for me than you, to chronicle another step with my eyes closed.