Dear Juliana,
I've just found out that you'd passed away on Friday. At first I didn't know how I could find the words to say how much you meant to me, and countless others that you'd touched with your kindness. I went and sat by the beach for a while to think about you.
Back in the grand old days at ntl: we were the closest team there, and you were at the heart of it. Everyone of us continues to hold you dear.
It was only 4 months ago we were talking about kids and family, and thats what makes it so hard to come to terms with. I can't imagine how I'd cope losing Lisa, how Id bring the kids up on my own. But I know you've raised them to be strong and smart like you were, and they'll get through this with their dad. I'm sure they'd be proud to know what a good friend you've been to so many. When I saw you were in the hospice in November I didn't even know you were ill, and that really knocked me for six, and now you're gone so soon after.
We haven't talked much in the last 8 / 9 years but whenever we do it's always like we see each other daily.
You were such a beautiful and pure spirit, anyone who ever met you will know what I mean. You were positive during the good and bad times, and you were always there with good advice. It's just not fair that you've gone. At least you're free of the pain and can be at peace.
You were like a mother and a sister to me, I'll never forget you. Some people write songs or express their grief in other creative ways, all I can do is try to immortalise your character and spirit for eternity. I'll come and say goodbye to you later.
All my love,
Matthew
P.S
I read your fathers blog post about what you've been through and never realised it was so bad. Your dignity, bravery and courage are beyond anything I could imagine. Not once did I ever hear you complain.
Bob's moving post can be read here http://bob-lock.blogspot.com/2011/03/juliana-elizabeth-cartwright-nee-lock.html.
I wish my words were as well written as his.